Adoption Journey-10

Waiting and waiting. That about sums up where we are at this point. I finally broke down and emailed our agency making sure they hadn't forgotten about us. They hadn't--thankfully. We are completing more paper work but we are in the child placement stage....still. We are waiting for that phone call letting us know they have finally matched us with our little one. We could get that phone call tomorrow or in 6 months from now. It's so strange going through this. I have never had to wait for something that I really wanted. I mean think about it, when you want something, you go and get it.
You want some bananas--go to the store and grab some.
You want some new jeans--go to the mall, try on a millon pairs, and hopefully buy some.
You want a hair cut--call your hair lady and make an appointment.
You want a new car--decide, plan, and get one.
You want a new job--research, interview, and change.
You want a new house--put yours up for sale and move.

I mean the list goes on and on. We live in a society where if you want something, well then by all means, go and get it. Sometimes that isn't alwayst the best thing but it's all there at our fingertips. We can jump in our cars, or log onto our computers, and have access to anyhing and everything. This is the first time in my life and I am having to wait for something I want so desperately.
And wait.
And wait.
And wait.

All I know for sure is, the Lord's timing is perfect. He knows exactly how much more time we'll have to wait. While I'm waiting, I'm learning.
I'm learning what it means to truly lean on the Lord and no one else.
I'm learning to seek Him when I'm feeling that this is too much.
I'm learning to give Him my worries when it becomes to much to handle.
I'm learning to trust Him in this entire process.

When He is done teaching me, then we will get that long-awaited, much anticipated phone call. And it will be the most exciting, most prayed for, most amazing phone call.
Ever.