Adoption Journey 7

We passed our physch exam! We mailed in our paper work and now onto the next step. Our social worker contacted us and we met with her a few weeks ago at our agency. When we got there, I was surprised at how big the place was. It was like a college campus. You could easily get lost there. We found our building though and met our social worker. I'll call her "Brenda." Brenda was great. She's been working for Dillon for 18 years. We are her first Honduras adoption. She was easy to talk to and I felt completely relaxed. She told us lots of information about our agency. Dillon has a missions building, a domestic building, an international building, and a huge place where kids go who need a little help. The kids live there and receive counseling. Dillon holds conferences, support groups, education classes, and many other services to help parents throughout the entire adoption process. I feel very supported. She said that Dillon will be apart of our lives forever. They don't just forget about you once you adopt--which is very comforting.

We talked with her for 3 hours. She asked all kinds of questions. Many were hard. We talked about how we can keep the culture alive in our child. We talked about the birth mother and father. She asked what we thought about them and what we thought their situation might be. This is actually something I pray a lot about. I think about the birth mother. Is she sad? Is she regretful? Is she happy with her decison? Is she alive? I know that may sound weird but maybe she got sick and died? Maybe no one could take care of our child properly and that is how they ended up in the orphanage? I pray that our child was born into love. I pray that he/she was welcomed into this world by parents who loved them. Parents who were happy they were alive. I don't want our child to ever feel lonliness or shame. I want them to have felt love and secruity. I just want the best possible situation. I hope that our child won't be in the orphange for very long, and I know it's probably a long shot--but I hope they aren't there right now.

"Brenda" also came to our house. She looked around and told us some things we need to change/or get--a fire extinguisher for upstairs and down, a lock on our medicine cabinet, a drop down ladder for upstairs and a few other things. Then she sat down with London and Lily and talked with them for awhile. I was so nervous about that. You just never know the things that will come out of their mouths. They were upstairs with her and at one point I heard Lily talking a mile a minute. I have no idea what was said but whatever it was, Brenda seemed to be okay with it. Then she sat down with J and I asked us all kinds of questions about our marriage, and how we discipline our girls. We were very honest and open. Everything went smoothly and now she is typing up our home study. She will send it off to a bunch of people who will read it and hopefully ok it. Weird to think that there will be a handful of strangers out there who will know the inside and out of J and I!!!!! She said that it will take a few months. So, the waiting game continues. We are trying to be patient and not think too far hard ahead.

One day at a time........